New project in the works! After many requests for my themed dark ambient compilations, and lots of encouraging feedback on the playlists I’ve posted, I’ve decided to take this dark ambient ‘mixtape’ thing a bit more seriously. I take great joy in helping others discover and appreciate the best of the dark ambient genre, and this will give me a much more organised way to do that. It will complement my in-progress book project and my dark fusion ritual dance project quite nicely as well.
Coming this winter on Mixcloud, from the heart of the Black Stone Hermitage: Chthonic Cathedral – a series of deep earth and dark ritual ambient compilations curated with love, care, and a bit of help from my DJ friends.
For a preview of what’s to come – including in-depth personal commentary on the selection of each track, and YouTube/Bandcamp links to the tracks – check out Music for Skaði: A Ritual Dark Ambient Playlist. If you like what you read and hear, my earlier entries under the dark ambient music tag may also be of interest.
It’s going to be a busy winter for this dark ambient devotee!
As someone who is currently working on a full-length book manuscript about the dark ambient genre, I’d like to thank writer John Norby for his recent article “Sworn to the Dark: The Definitive History of Dark Ambient” in issue 58 (April-May 2014) of Zero Tolerance, a magazine focused on metal genres. Perfect timing for my research purposes!
This well-written and carefully researched article filled in some of the gaps in my own knowledge of the genre quite nicely, especially with respect to the 1960s and 1970s precursors of the genre from early krautrock pioneers such as Cluster, Popol Vuh, and Ash Ra Tempel. It provided me with a lot of helpful information for the introductory chapter I’m writing which includes a brief history and cultural overview of the genre.
The author’s selections for “required listening” – including Lustmord “Heresy” (“the benchmark release for any fan of dark ambient”), Lull “Dreamt About Dreaming,” and Lamia Vox “Sigillum Diaboli” – are on target (though incomplete), and the article features brief but fascinating comments from prominent musicians and label owners including Klaus Schultze, Brian Williams of Lustmord, Michael J.V. Hensley of Yen Pox and Blood Box, Robert C. Kozletsky of Psychomanteum, Shock Frontier and Apócrýphos, Alina Antonova of Lamia Vox, Simon Heath of Cryo Chamber, Frédéric Arbour of Cyclic Law, Justin Mitchell of Cold Spring, and Jason Mantis of Malignant Records.
Norby calls Klaus Schulze’s “Irrlicht” album “the first album ever that fully embraced the sounds that we now call dark ambient.” He acknowledges that Tangerine Dream’s “Zeit” is also a contender for first dark ambient album, though he writes that it is “not quite as menacing as Irrlicht” – an assessment with which I agree.
The intention of dark ambient, writes Norby, “…is to take people who embrace it on a deep listening journey.”
The article certainly fuels my appetite for more in-depth insight and extensive coverage of the genre. Since my book is being written in a personal narrative style that focuses on the spiritual, emotional, and cultural impact of this music rather than the history of the genre, I’m pleased that someone else took on the task of writing and publishing “the definitive history” of dark ambient. As far as I know, this is the first print source in English to publish something like this. It’s not an exhaustive history of the genre, of course; Norby wisely acknowledges that such a treatment would be impossible within the confines of a magazine. While the article could have been improved by the inclusion of more artists, labels, festival info, etc., I think he did a great job in the space of just nine pages.
I recommend picking up a copy of issue 58 of the magazine if you are interested in the history of the dark ambient genre. I’ve also been told that the magazine will be covering dark ambient more extensively in the future; I look forward to seeing what’s in store!
Intrigue, mystery, and intensity: this is the essence of dark fusion dance, and Lumen Obscura Productions’ Visions DVD delivers eleven riveting dark fusion performances packed with theatrical drama, ritual elements, ethereal atmospheres, and compelling artistry.
In addition to the range of belly dance styles featured in this DVD – tribal fusion, American Tribal Style, American cabaret – the other dance styles and influences fused seamlessly together in these dark fusion dance performances include ballet, modern, jazz, butoh, and hip hop.
The lighting is excellent all the way through, setting the mood appropriately and highlighting the dancers’ movements in all the right ways. Fellow dancers will appreciate the camera work and editing as well: belly rolls are shown clearly, and facial expressions highlighted at just the right angle. Thankfully, there are none of those annoying moments where the camera cuts away abruptly while the viewer is left thinking: “Hey, I wanted to SEE that move the dancer did there! Why did you suddenly zoom in on her face and obscure her hips?”
And if you’ve ever felt disappointed when watching a dancer who seemed to be more interested in showing off their advanced technique than they were in using their dance as an art form (“hey, look, I can do a killer Turkish drop!”) you’ll be glad to know that you’ll find none of that ego-centric focus here. You’ll see impressive technique, of course, as these are all advanced-level dancers, but the stellar technique never overshadows the expressive artistry or their obvious love for the music.
You’ll also see here that the love-your-body vibe in the belly dance community is not just lip service: dancers of a variety of beautiful shapes and sizes are featured in this DVD, much to my delight.
The performance that stood out for me was Kristie Lauren’s “The Fabled Statue.” I simply could not take my eyes off of her. The stellar atmospheric music she chose – “Sister Scythe” by Nezzy Idy – captivated me so much that I listened to the track over and over again, and tracked down the musician’s website so I could buy it.
Kristie is top-notch in musicality as well as technique: her movement accents are perfectly timed and executed, and she knows how to build anticipation in her audience. I watched this memorable performance multiple times in a row, in an attempt to absorb every possible nuance of the lighting, music, costuming, choreography, and atmosphere.
Paige Lawrence is sensational in “The Darrien Gap” – he’s been one of my favourite dancers for years. One of his many strengths as a dancer is his ability to dig deep and convey darker emotional states in a raw and honest way. There’s as much drama and intensity in his music as there is in his movement, and his facial expressions highlight this even more.
Katy Swenson gets high marks for her stellar costuming, perfect turns, and fluid-as-water undulations in her amazing sword performance to “Axarai” by Raquy and the Cavemen. I particularly love the ritualistic uncloaking in the veiled intro section, as well as the dramatic ending.
Ida Mahin’s first piece, “Unchained,” conveys strength and intrigue with its sharp staccato moves and skirt accents. “Kleid aus Rosen” (Dress of Roses) – her second and more ethereal piece – uses elegant ballet fusion to deliver an evocative lament. There is a luminous mystery that takes over in both of Ida’s performances, transporting the viewer to another time and place through the magic of the dance.
Megz & Marjhani are gorgeous and brimming over with infectious attitude, and they seem ideally matched for their duet. Great musicality, costuming, and coordination. Tribal style belly dance and industrial music (“Hate” and “My Eyes Are Red” by HexRx) are a winning combination here – they pull it off perfectly.
Arcane Dimension’s ethereal “Shapeshifter” performance features two live musicians playing right alongside the dancers. I’d love to see more of this kind of collaborative effort between musicians and dancers happening in dark fusion dance performances. The beautiful fluttery veil work imparts a heightened sense of mystery and intrigue, and the choreography uses the space in ways that are complementary to both the musicians and the dancers.
Sabaku Fusion’s “Sandstorm” is a nicely creepy fusion piece which opens with beautiful and grotesque butoh-influenced movements to the haunting tones of “Eternal Imaging Patterns of Blossoming From Beneath” by An Exquisite Corpse. Sabaku adds a touch of industrial scene insider humour and high-energy choreography to the mix with the second half of their performance, to Komor Kommando’s “Das Oontz.”
Deidre Anaid, creative director of Sabaku Fusion, delivers a unique short solo piece, “Otherworldly Wasteland,” with hip-hop flair, evocative music (“Relentless Drag” by Shigeto), and a combination of lovely costume elements that work together perfectly. The light-hearted elements of this piece combine well with her nuanced facial expressions and choreography to impart a delightful sense of the unexpected.
Maureen’s haunting “Shadowed Red” piece to the Android Lust track “Stained” draws me in with graceful hand movements and innovative, unusual costuming, delivering an equally unsettling and captivating performance with a touch of the macabre. There is a sense of reserve and control here that heightens curiosity and feeds the imagination.
Aepril Schaile’s “Landing Strip” brings to the stage a strong sense of depth and mystery. With her usual engaging, theatrical style, she takes us on a journey through heavily emotionally laden and unearthly terrain, each nuance of her dark tale shining with precision and beauty.
Bottom line: If you’re a fan of dark fusion dance – a style that was once more well known as “gothic bellydance” – you won’t go wrong with this DVD. It’s professionally made by insiders in the gothic-industrial music and dark fusion dance communities. The dancers are all excellent, the lighting and camera work are flawless, and the artistry is paramount.
In my mind, Visions even surpasses the gothic bellydance DVDs released through World Dance New York, both of which I thoroughly enjoyed and also recommend. I hope we’ll see future releases in a similar vein from Lumen Obscura Productions!
I am pleased to announce the new website for Shrine of Skaði, my dark fusion ritual dance project.
The site – like the project itself – is a personal devotional work in honour of the goddess of Northern mythology Who is closest to my heart, and it is being made public in Her service, as an offering.
* a bio page with background info, including details about the contemplative-monastic focus of this project, and the way my dance deals with Earth grief and is “rooted” in the surroundings and atmosphere;
* a ritual dark ambient music playlist compiled specifically for Skaði, with comments on the thought process associated with each track selection;
* photos and detailed descriptions of all the shrines I’ve built for Skaði since 2007; and
* an in-depth personal story of how this project took root alchemically in the wake of grief, loss, and a painful divorce.
This website is the first public stage of a project that has been in development since I discovered gothic bellydance, now generally known as dark fusion dance, in 2006. I have ambitious (albeit very small-scale) plans for this endeavour, and for future additions to the website…including themed photo shoots in costume, writings of gratitude and appreciation for the many artists and musicians who have inspired me, a recommended reading list on sacred dance, and much more.
All in good time, of course, since my in-progress book manuscript (Endarkenment: The Esoteric in Dark Ambient Music and Culture) will continue to be my first priority for the foreseeable future.
There are no performance videos available yet, but they’re in the works for the next stage of the project. For now, there are links to a couple of my improv practice videos from 2012, and a performance video from my youth. The dance videos may look familiar, since I’ve posted them before. All the writings are new, however.
Comments, error corrections, suggestions, and constructive criticism are all welcome. Thank you, and enjoy!
[Friends encouraged me to turn this into a blog post after I originally posted it to Facebook, so here it is.]
Dear guy I chatted with on the bus,
There’s no reason to feel sorry for me because I work as a house cleaner.
Yes, I have three college degrees, and was groomed for a professional “white collar” career. None of that education is being “wasted” just because I clean houses for money. (Although if I had it to do over again, I think I’d skip the post-bac in accounting. These days, a college education is more likely to be a ticket INTO the poorhouse than a ticket out of it. But that’s another story.)
I’ll admit that for the first few months after I started my housekeeping business in 2012, I too felt sorry for myself more often than not. I had spent the previous several years grieving the loss of a marriage and hunting for jobs; no one would hire me, my self-esteem was in the gutter, years of savings had vanished forever into the black hole of the divorce aftermath, I had to go on food stamps, and I was on the verge of having to move back in with my folks to survive (something none of us wanted, least of all me. I love Portland; my folks live in Honolulu; I hate sun and heat. ‘Nuff said.) All I had ever really wanted to do with my life was to write non-fiction books. I didn’t even want a job. But I needed one. So, since no one would hire me, I started my own business. It’s fair to say I kind of stumbled into this.
But then, somewhere along the line, it dawned on me that I am exactly where I want to be. It may make little sense to you, but I’m not just biding time as a house cleaner until I can find a better job. This IS a better job.
It’s all about perspective. So let me show you what this job looks like through MY eyes.
I got started in this business because someone in my community saw my website and decided to give me a chance, based on the recommendation of someone in her social network. I didn’t have to fill out online job application forms, take a humiliating drug test, or jump through any other bureaucratic hoops. So right from the outset, this venture was based in relationships of genuine trust.
From there, my business expanded entirely by word-of-mouth. So far, I haven’t even needed to advertise to find new clients, because my satisfied clients have recommended me to their friends and colleagues after being impressed with my work. As word gets out, they seek me out. Sure beats groveling for a stressful minimum wage receptionist job, let me tell you. And because I’m independent, I can charge what I’m worth, instead of just what a franchise will pay me to work for them.
Since I don’t drive, I haul all my cleaning supplies back and forth to each job in a wheeled backpack on public transit. While this isn’t always easy, I find it a lot less difficult than owning a car and commuting in rush-hour traffic. I can sit back and read a book or just daydream, and let someone else handle the driving. I feel fortunate to live in a city with a public transit system that makes it possible to run a business like this without a car.
Because I’m the boss and the only employee, I can run this business on my own terms. I choose my own schedule and my days off. I can – and do! – take a lunch break or a short breather whenever I feel like it.
I enjoy the privilege of being able to work independently in people’s homes. In the course of my work, I’ve learned a great deal about the pros and cons of various kinds of flooring, furniture, kitchen surfaces, etc. This knowledge is handy now, of course, and it will also come in handy later on when I start looking for a house for my Hermitage.
My work is honest, unpretentious, and brightens people’s moods. Sure beats spending 8+ hours a day under fluorescent lights in an office cubicle, enduring office politics and selling people more crap they don’t need.
I can listen to industrial music on headphones while I work; I don’t have to deal with blaring TVs or elevator muzak. I don’t have to wear makeup to work – I can save that effort for my bellydance costuming, which makes me appreciate it more. I don’t have to bother with the expense or upkeep of a professional wardrobe. I don’t have to share airspace with people wearing perfumes that make me ill.
And the stress is almost non-existent. When I was an advanced accounting student, I was so stressed out that I was grinding my teeth at night, and frequently woke up with an aching jaw. Now? Even the most stressful day I’ve had on the job produced maybe a tenth of the stress I’ve experienced in office jobs, if that.
Because the work is so physical, my muscles are tired at the end of the day, yet happy to be well used. This translates into me sleeping like a baby at night, and waking up fully refreshed. It also translates into being stronger for my daily bellydance drills, and it means I don’t need to bother with the time and cost of a gym membership. That’s good, because I hate gyms.
And the work is earthy. It’s compatible with my ecologically-centered Pagan values – minimising fossil fuel use as much as possible, avoiding work that contributes to ecological destruction as much as possible, serving my community, etc. I use only non-toxic cleaning supplies – mostly baking soda and distilled white vinegar.
All my clients so far have been found through arts-related and esoteric communities. This is awesome for both me and my clients. They completely understand when I explain that in addition to being a house cleaner, I’m also a writer and a dancer, and they appreciate the fact that I won’t be uncomfortable with their Aleister Crowley books or their creepy bone collection.
I come home from work, and (after a short nap) not only do I still have energy left over to write, but on good days I’m actually overflowing with words. Like right now. I’m writing this after a full day of work, in fact – a day in which my Muse decided to fill me with the breath of inspiration mid-scrub. Good thing I was able to jot down notes so I could remember what I wanted to write about when I got home.
Yes, my hands are starting to develop calluses from pushing brooms and mops so often, and the skin on my fingertips gets dry and cracked sometimes. I can’t say I’m happy about the way self-employed people are taxed. And once in a while, I do get a bit lonely for the rhythm of shared labour. But I am healthier and more fulfilled than I’ve ever been in my entire life.
So don’t feel sorry for me, dude. Because I fucking love my life.
There are two books – both of which I’ve read several times over in the past few years – that have marked a major turning point in more fully embracing the esoteric aspects of my creative process as a non-fiction writer. One is Stephen Buhner’s Ensouling Language: On the Art of Non-Fiction and the Writer’s Life, which I’ve mentioned elsewhere, and plan to write about at length eventually. The other is Matt Cardin’s A Course in Demonic Creativity: A Writer’s Guide to the Inner Genius. Many thanks to Henry Lauer, who originally recommended this book to me.
Both of these books are extraordinary. The latter, however, is not too well-known, and it richly deserves to be more widely appreciated, so I want to put in a good word for it. It is available in ebook form only, as a PDF via Cardin’s blog The Teeming Brain.
Here’s a bit from the book’s introduction:
“Where does creativity come from? Why do ideas and inspiration feel as if they come from “outside,” from an external source that’s separate from us but able to whisper ideas directly into the mind? Why have so many writers throughout history – and also composers, painters, philosophers, mystics, and scientists – spoken of being guided, accompanied, and even haunted by a force or presence that not only serves as the deep source of their creative work but exerts a kind of profound and inexorable gravitational pull on the shape of their lives? [...]
“Your unconscious mind is truly your “genius.” Befriending it as such, and interacting with it as if it really is a separate, collaborating presence, puts you in a position to receive its gifts, and it in the position to give them to you. This book…is my attempt to explain what this really entails for writers and artists, and how you can verify it for yourself.”
Cardin goes on to describe the daemon muse as “the spirit that inspires a person to do the work for which he or she is uniquely gifted and intended,” and he describes the word “demon” as carrying a host of meanings that have been largely lost to modern awareness.
The entire book is excellent, but I’m especially fond of the way Cardin writes about trusting the flow of the creative process, with its alternating stages of active effort and active waiting. His critique of the unexamined assumptions behind “the myth of constant output” and his discussion of George Wallas’ four-stage model have been so illuminating for me. “Not everybody can be a Charles Dickens or a Stephen King who produces a gargantuan body of work at a rapid pace…” he writes. Indeed!
The incubation stage, or fallow period, has been one of my biggest challenges as a writer. There is so much pressure to adopt a nose-to-the-grindstone approach. Whenever I have worked from that mindset, though, I have found that the quality of my writing suffers; the results are flat, and while the finished work may be good enough technically, it feels forced, and it remains painfully obvious to me that something vital has gone missing.
Intuitively I sense that even when I am not sitting in front of my computer and typing actively, work on the manuscript is still proceeding, albeit at a level of flow that is not readily accessible to my conscious awareness. On the surface, though, it appears that my progress is stalling, and it’s easy to fall into a pit of fear and doubt. After many years of untold frustration, I think I am finally developing the emotional skills necessary to trust this process and allow it to happen as it will. Much better than wasting energy comparing my own output to that of writers I admire and fearing I’ll never measure up because my creative process is different and the work I’m doing takes a great deal of time to manifest properly.
Whenever I am able to surrender to the dictates of the daemon muse and stop trying to do all the writing myself by dint of conscious effort and striving, my writing improves by leaps and bounds.
Thank you, Matt Cardin, for helping me learn how to mold myself into a vessel capable of channeling the daemon muse and allowing it to guide me as I write.
In the Winter Solstice spirit of embracing the darkness and the longest night of the year…
Inspired by dark ritual ambient music, dark fusion dance, and the deepening of autumn and the coming of winter, here are some photos from the Oct. 2013 Endarkenment Redecoration Project at the Hermitage in downtown Portland, OR, USA. This is my newly redecorated studio and mini temple space, where I live, work, and serve as temple keeper. The Black Tent Temple and Psychomanteum (mirror gazing room) is now completed, and over the next few weeks I will be booking the first exploratory psychomanteum sessions for friends of the Hermitage.
This is as close as I have ever come to my dream place to live and work, and all the more satisfying because I accomplished this almost entirely with thrift store finds on a shoestring budget.
I feel so blessed to be able to live here and do this work creating sacred space for dark temple arts in service of the divine.
The Black Stone, namesake of the Hermitage: a 50mm black obsidian sphere, with two smaller black obsidian stones alongside it. The stone is my teacher; every day I bow into deeper service to it.
One side of the meditation and ritual dance space. In the background, behind the dark ambient shrine, is the kitchen.
A framed mirror and Hermit-themed tarot art in the entryway to the Hermitage.
The sanctuary area behind the entryway, featuring shelves with shrines. Beside the shrines is the new psychomanteum (incubation space/mirror gazing room.)
A close-up of the dark ambient music & dark art shrine, looking into the kitchen.
The meditation and ritual dance spot. On the right is a bookshelf with belly dance instructional DVDs and tea books; on top of the bookshelf is my ancestor shrine.
A gothic-style mirror draped with black fringe framing an end table.
Looking into the entryway from the dance area. Great view of the Hermitage library. The black curtains can be drawn shut on all sides to provide a sense of enclosure in the sanctuary area where the shrines and the psychomanteum are located.
The door to the new psychomanteum – a portal or spiritual incubation space, a.k.a. mirror gazing room. I will be scheduling the first exploratory sessions very soon!
Framed art at the Hermitage – H.R. Giger #312, “Biomechanoid Landscape,” and Todd Lockwood, “Hell Friezes 1: Cerberus.”
Framed art at the Hermitage – a beatific bellydancer (artist unknown), and a promotional poster from the very first Raqs Oubliettes event (2011) at the Lovecraft Bar.
The Hermit shrine in the sanctuary area, directly in front of the psychomanteum.
The futon loveseat at the Hermitage. It can be pulled out into a full-size bed.
The tea ritual area at the Hermitage, featuring a new table with adjustable drop-leaf sides. Very nice when I want to free up more room for dance practice!